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Category Archives: Alumni and Family

My Only Regret Is Having Waited So Long

I am ashamed to admit that I have been in inpatient or residential treatment at five other facilities before I finally could afford to switch insurance carriers to one which covered Castlewood, my at-home treatment team’s first choice 7 years ago. My only regret is having waited so long. Your staff, including the insightful and compassionate direct care providers, were able to see beyond the food into what I really needed to address. I never felt alone on this journey. I was allowed, even encouraged, to be an active participant in creating and modifying my treatment plan. When I needed…

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Castlewood truly changed me

“As I reflect on my time at Castlewood I am so thankful for the opportunity to be able to go there and get healing, learn boundaries, learn how to love myself, and how to make healthy relationships. Castlewood truly changed me. Castlewood gave me a second chance at motherhood. I now am a proud mommy of three adorable children. I just had a baby two weeks ago and although I struggled with the connection with my first two kids I truly have a connection now with them and with our new bundle of joy Landyn. I can not thank you…

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So Completely Devoted To Its Clients

” I truly don’t know where I’d be if I hadn’t come here. Actually it’s entirely possible i’d not be here…anywhere. I’ve never been to a treatment center so completely devoted to its clients. This place is truly something special, and I don’t see how I could recommend it more highly. In fact, I have already recommended it to friends at the outpatient program I was in before coming here. As I sit here thinking about leaving tomorrow, I have tears of sadness and joy. I haven’t had that in a long time. It’s a beautiful gift that Castlewood gave…

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Alumni Corner- Raising Awareness on a Personal Level

Written By Andrea Batt, Castlewood Alumn Andrea was recently featured on Project Heal as a guest blogger. She shares below about her process of writing this piece. When I find myself struggling with eating disordered thoughts, I always refer to my “bag of tricks”–formally known as coping skills.  To name a few of my trusted tricks: I typically start out with a “just do it” mentality–and at times that is enough to get me through. Other times, I resort to self talk on a more positive level.  If my self-hate is too high to accept what I’m saying, I reach out…

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I extend deepest respect and profound, lasting gratitude.

“I came to Castlewood a broken person, riddled with shame, self hate and terror.  I was not far from death.  The effects of trauma had left me fragmented and terrified of both existing in my body and functioning in the outside world.  At Castlewood, I have for the first time in my life, slowly begun to experience a sense of safety.  Through my work here, I have been able to cultivate enough strength and courage to explore the seemingly endless layers of pain an suffering accumulated over the course of more than 30 years of life.  Throughout my journey at…

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Letter From a Former Client: Healing From an Eating Disorder is a Complex Task

Until I entered Castlewood, I lived a double life. I couldn’t be myself, and no one really knew me. Healing from an eating disorder is a complex task. I wish it could be as simple as popular culture and media make it out to be. I wish you could eat, read some work sheets about skills, replace your “maladaptive coping mechanisms” – i.e., eating disorder behaviors – with “healthy” ones (“Instead of skipping lunch, I ate and then wrote in my journal. Now I feel better), and call it a day. It’s safer for treatment centers to err on the…

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I will forever be grateful

“As a 22 year old who has struggled with her eating disorder for over half of her life, my hope for recovery had been rapidly reduced down to a flicker. Castlewood Treatment Center is the second facility I’ve undergone treatment for my eating disorder; however, it’s the first place I was able to find a renewed hope for my future. Castlewood’s staff is unbelievably knowledgeable about a variety of issues: trauma, abuse, eating disorders of every kind, substance abuse, anxiety and OCD, self harm, SI, body image issues, attachment issues–you name it; they are familiar and eager to help clients…

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Every person that walks in those doors walks out a different person

“Being honest meant I was going against who I was – everything I was always taught – the constant shifting, in and out of whichever character I needed to be for protection from the rest of the world.  At Castlewood, for the first time I told a story that was mine – not the one I thought I knew was true… not the story of a girl I was in public, or the girl in the bedroom I borrowed growing up, or the girl in my parents house.  It was all mine – non-returnable, non-refundable – mine. We all come…

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My first week at Castlewood completely exceeded my expectations

“I came to treatment at Castlewood not knowing what to expect. I hadn’t been in treatment before and had no idea what was ahead of me. It didn’t take long for me to realize that I was in a special place. As I underwent the initial process of adjusting to a new environment, I attempted to convince myself that I was not sick enough to warrant help (a denial of my own needs that I later learned played into my eating disorder). I was fortunate enough to be surrounded by incredibly supportive peers who assured me that I deserved the…

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The First Step In Trusting Myself

“I do appreciate the general consistency that Castlewood keeps for all clients in the community, as well as the individualized treatment approach that navigates specific needs. I have never before felt so much care, compassion, and genuine interest in my needs and well-being. Everyone on staff at Castlewood is evidently here because they care about the clients, and their love and wisdom have helped me save my own life. I couldn’t have the confidence in my desire or ability to recover if it weren’t for all the support I have had here. I have learned how to build trust with…

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